Why the dead don't look back

I close my eyes and die. Forever. Or, for what seems like forever. It is darkness and deafness and oblivion. It is Pralaya. It is nothing. Then, after an eternity of non-existence I awaken. It's very confusing, I don't feel like myself. I can't even think or remember. I am just a primordial idea. From nothing I became something. Then it happened, and it felt like it happened before I knew. The answer came before the question. I know what I was, and I know what I have become. I am the Universe.